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Episode · 1 year ago

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This week, the girls share their experience from this last weekend. They had plans to celebrate Natalie’s birthday which didn’t end up going as planned... 

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Hey, guys, welcome back to bolden balance. This episode is unlike any others and that we're just really gonna sit down and talk to you about what happened over our weekend and how it all went down and how we feel today. Yeah, and cryptic. But just because of that, we're not going to do our three, two one. We're not gonna jump into bills, facebook feed or the Bachelorette. But I think that's okay. I guess we can just say it. As you heard last week, I know you wanted an update on how my birthday went. And Yeah, so we were going to a birthday dinner that was just going to be me, Sydney, my roommates and our other friend, and on the way to dinner we got into a really bad car accident, and that's not a joke. We did we're lucky to be alive right now. So it's just it's not funny, but it's sort of ironic because I was real listening to last week's episode and seriously, you know, I was like bummed about the fact that I couldn't have everyone over and I was like, but it'll be fun and will whatever, and you know, it's just sad but it's also again we're grateful that everyone's more okay than they could have been, for sure. Yeah, yeah, I guess we should just get into more detail. Yeah, I guess I'll say like we got into a car and start. So like a general trigger warning to like if you've had a personal experience or loss of loved on to a car accident, this might not be the episode to listen to. Like definitely go check out our other stuff. Like we're normally pretty fun, pretty upbeat. So this isn't our our usual ye, but I think it's really important to recognize what happened and talk about it, because it happens and most people's lifetimes at some point. Yeah, so, Um, basically we were driving to dinner. I guess we should talk about the full day. Okay, so this happened Saturday. My birthday was Sunday, so luckily it wasn't on my actual, actual birthday, but Sydney and I actually both had recording session before that. I ended up locking my key's in my apartment, which is so unlike me. I'm like really on top of most things and really just like pretty grounded and put together and everyday life and I don't forget things and I am on time, you know, like there's lots of little things that like so onlike me, but that morning it was just like hectic from the beginning and I was I wasn't rushed, but I was rushing myself, and so I just I locked my door from the inside block and I walked outside and got out to my garage and really went to ground my keys to unlock my car and realized I locked my keys in my apartment and I couldn't get back in. So I ended up having to Uber to this thing that we're about to talk about. But yeah, so just like really started the day off from myself poorly, because it was so unlike me, and so just like disturbing that that happened. I like that. That doesn't happen to me. I don't forget those and so doesn't. It was. It was it made me like feel gross from the beginning, but I just, you know, move passed it one to the recording thing that we were doing. And it's weird too, because I had an alarm set like a little bit before Sydney's was a go supposed to leave, so that I could like make sure she's all good and everything just because and I my alarm didn't go off and I realized later that I said it for pm instead of am, which is so weird. I also don't really do that, and if it had gone off when it was supposed to, I could have driven her, but it was all weird things, so weird. Yeah, Gosh. Yeah, and then we this was cool, like asked, we recorded music for that original musical we're going to be in we've talked about, which is fun and exciting and I've never recorded music like that before for that Los. So that was cool. But yeah, then I picked up my cake from there.

My mom still got the cake. Like I said, we're planning on giving out pieces to everyone and going to eat some myself. And yes, so I picked up the cake and then I got home and Sydney was there with my roommates and they had decorated my apartment and it was super cute and sweet and we were going to have the little party of the five of us at night. So wholesome, so wholesome, like living in bliss. Yeah, it was going to it was going to be cute and Nice. So then we got ready as our Taylor swift outfits. We did do that. Luckily, we took a couple pictures before we embarked for the night, but none together. We just took ours by ourselves. Yeah, we can post them on Instagram, so hopefully you've seen those pictures by now of me and the right album and Sydney spearless. They were cute. Yeah, so then we we left, because we hate we did the dropoffs, like I mentioned, for our friends and dropped off cake and a drink for people, and then we came back to get because only three of us went to do that, and then I went back to my apartment, yes to head out for for dinner, and so there were five of us in the car. Try, who's my sorority little, was driving and not a lose in the front seat, and then I was in the back seat behind Natalie, and then not at least two roommates were also in the back seat with me. We were in a little suber. Spirits were good. We were playing only Taylor swift and they are and we were heading out to dinner at this pretty, like, I don't us all like famous restaurant called L Joohwah, just like a fun one. Yeah, and what's weird is like there were a lot of different route options, like we could have taken, but I was like, Oh, this will be easy, like let's take nine hundred. It's a through street and I like driving on nine hundred more than I like driving on seven hundred. So, like I normally choose nine hundred for myself. And so, even though I wasn't driving, I was Gpsay, and so I told you you to take nine hundred. Yeah, it's just so weird. Okay, well, anyway, we can get into that later. I was just going to say it's weird to think about all these little things that would have affected everything time. But yeah, so we were going and we were we're fairly close, right. I don't know, this was jot for yeah, it's not like the closest one to us, like it's not like in downtown's all AC or by campus or like right near us. It's like a fifteen minute drivesh right, very more, maybe even more. Yeah, so not the closest place, but like a fun place. And how you was driving because she was the only one who's under age and something that people the reason they go there is for these fun drinks they have. So yeah, basically we were just driving and we were at a light and it was green. We're just going through straight and Sydney and I both noticed a truck. What's it called? A pickup truck, right, yeah, the drug a truck on the larger side of a truck is a big truck. And Yeah, it was just coming at us from me and Sydney side, from the passenger side, and I don't know, I just keep remembering like both cars were just going like you know, neither neither person was stopping. I was like, okay, either someone they're going to break and they're going to stop, or we're about to die. Yeah, or I don't know about we, but I thought I for sure it was going to die because of where my seat was and where the car was coming from. But somehow it was timed so that even though that car was coming from like ninety degrees of us from the side, it didn't really hit the side of me and Sydney.

It's slightly did, just because the car spun a little bit the way. There's more damage. There was more damage on the passenger side, but it was pretty much mostly from our front and so we kind of tea bones the other cars, what you'd say right, which yeah, I guess is good. I mean, I don't know. I don't know what would have happened if they hit our we can't go there. So that's I don't know, I should I explain that well, and you want to add to that? Yeah, what I will added, what is honest, is that there were three of us in the backseat and like we all have large hips, and so we've been saying, like thick thigh save lives, like literally, like they saved our lives. Yeah, I'm I'm just funny, Gosh. But yeah, so I think you explained it well. It was basically that we were just going through a green light and this large truck ran a red light and we hit them in the middle of the intersection. Try You. Who was driving said that she just closed her eyes for a second, like she blinked, and she opened them and the truck was right there. Yeah, which not only I both vividly remember seeing it coming. So it's like sad that she did it, you know. Yeah, yeah, it was coming fast. Yeah, I know. I'm like thinking about it. I'm like maybe he knew the light was red and just like was speeding through to try to make it to the other side. Before we came there, but it was like it was so clad. I was like, oh my Gosh, how are they not stopping? There's they have to stop. They had to see us. I don't know, it's so crazy. And Yeah, so then we crashed and was super loud, like an insanely loud crash, which makes sense if you have two big metal cars coming at each other fast, like obviously. Gosh, it was just so scary and I mean I thought I was going to die, like I said, and then I just remember after I like noticed my air bag went off, but I feel like I didn't really feel it much. I feel like it was pretty weak. I feel like luckily I was wearing a seat belt. I would have died if I wasn't, probably, but I feel like I felt my chest hurting from my seat beltamre so than the air bag, which some people say it's like good, like sometimes air bags can cause more damage if they're really strong, so I guess it's good. I don't know. But yeah, I even remember like we're like, Oh my God, should call nine hundred and twenty one, like what do we do? Stopped and I remember there was like, you know, grown, like I said, should I call? Should I call on anyone? Because I'm just like like, Oh my God. So I was not I called any one, and I remember I was still in the car when I did it and then I like was getting out of the car while I was calling, and the four of them were all able to, you know, exit the vehicle and get over on the side of the road. Yeah, on the sidewalk, but for some reason I just like didn't feel like I could leave, like I just felt like I needed to stay right there. I like couldn't leave. I don't know, it was weird, but yeah, the guy who had us his not our friend. Obviously he had his wife and we assume there were two children in the car. I use too to since doing my research on him, I know that this is his second wife. So I don't know if they're his children or more than that, but there were two children and I remember while I was on the phone, one of the kids was just like screaming, just screaming from the truck. But yeah, the man like ran at me while I was on the phone of the fine one, and remember he ran at me and I was like, Dude, your child is screaming, like why are you yet like running at me, like yeah, I'm fine, HMM, and he like saying it as everyone okay? Is Everyone okay? Yeah, he like didn't have a mask on and like, in case you forgot, like pandemic is still a thing, but like I had not in that moment. So I was like please, put a ask on our stay six...

...feet away from me, the girl on the phone, but that one one was like good for you. I was like thanks, thank you. So that I was silly. Yeah, meanwhile, yeah, I don't know, I didn't know. We were at an intersection, like a four way street or whatever. What would you call four ways? Stop Light? A light? Yeah, basically, my point is I didn't know where to go stand after, which corner to go to, but I don't know. I ended up at this one that our friends were at. I don't know who went there first, but it was like the opposite side of the street from where the truck was, and all of them like good. Yeah, I was like yeah, I don't, I don't want to be next to them, uh, especially because their masks were off, and he was like going up to us being like real gay, and I don't know. He I don't know. I'M NOT CONVINCED HE was sober? Yeah, but we don't know. And yeah, so my chest was really hurting. It was kind of hard to breathe. Honestly, I was like I wanted to wear a mask, but it was also sort of hard to so I was like had it on, but I would like walk away from people and face away and pull it down and like breathe and bi okay, like can I breathe? Is it just my chest hurts from the seat belt er, like, did something happen? So that was kind of scary. I called my mom. I was like, uh, it's so sad. I was talking to her about it and she was like Oh, apparently she was talking to my dad, because I send her the pictures of me as Taylor swift and she was like, Natalie looks so happy. I haven't seen her this happy and so long. Like I'm so happy for her, I know I'm gonna like cry. And then I call her and I'm like I got an accident and she's like, oh my gosh, like both of us, apparently she had the same reaction as me, which I didn't know. We were both just so mad because it was like, are you kidding me? Is this actually happening right now, like this is already been going to shit and like this had to happen, like we were going to dinner. It was gonna be okay, and like why did this happen? Why this happened? I don't know. So, but then I had to be like okay, I'm alive, yeah, but Gosh. So, yeah, I don't know. I called my mom. Our friend CHAII was like on the floor, but I was like I think it was more just an emotional reason to be on the floor as opposed to like she was. Yeah, she was also in pain, but I think Jims and shock. Yeah, that's what kimes. The biggest thing was, I think. Yes, she was like obviously upset, but and I they're like her leg was bothering her that night, but I think it was just like shocked that that happened. Yeah, yeah, which she's saying. I mean, you know, I feel like I was going through like the stages of greet for whatever, like, oh my gosh, it was just it's just so crazy. I don't really know how I reacted how as well as I did. Like I didn't cry until like hours later. Like I was like so grounded and so like I will call men when one and then I like quickly called my mom. I said, mom, we got into a car accident. I'm okay, I'll talk to later, and she was like okay, and I was like goodbye, and then I was like okay, chill you, let's call your parents. You know what I was like? It was is amazing, to be honest, like I am blessed. I naturally react like that, I guess, but like it was, it was kind of insane and now it's kind of fun. I remember the like one of the first things I thought as soon as I crossed the street was to take pictures. Yeah, and so I took a pretty iconic picture of Sydney standing by the smoking car on the phone with nine D and One one. So, yeah, I don't know, that was my like one good reaction, I guess, as I was like we need pictures, but anyway we have the fun dramatic pictures. It is very dramatic, it's pretty silly and it's a live photo. Yeah, makes it even better. Yeah, that, but yeah, I think that's that's our experience. But yeah,...

...there were there were people who were nice and like helped us out after like this one lady brought us blankets because we were cold because we're in our tailor swift outfits. Yeah, some people brought us like some drinks and just like we're Nice, but Um, yeah, it was pretty crazy, pretty scary. Again, we're lucky we're as okay as we are. Yeah, so then that night people were saying, Oh, I should go to the ER, I should go to the doctor get checked out just in case, like that was a bad crash, your chest hurts, you can't breathe, and I was like, yes, my birthday celebration still, I have my zoom to get back to, like they're expecting US soon. I'm like always, like even then, I'm like thinking they wouldn't care. In my head I was like, oh my gosh, I can't not do the zoom. These people are counting on it, like Natalie. No, but that's what I was thinking, and so I ended up going home. Said came to one of my roommates, went to the hospital you are, because she thought she may have broken her hand because she grabbed Chi e Um, and my other roommate came home with us, and then try ye also went to the e are. That night. We came back to my apartment and Tryde a good time. It was like I like facetime my mom again and it lay the situation. I was like should I drink? I don't know, like I was going to, and she was like you should have a glass of wine to help you like relax at least, like don't like get drunk, but I was like yeah, I was like fuck, I want to do but like it was just this whole thing. I we eventually did the zoom, but first we like ordered food because we were like starving. To ever, I was so starving I like I remember we were on our way delivering the cakes and I was starving. I was like I'm so hungry, but I'll wait because we're getting a big dinner. And like Huh Gosh, and like we were at like the accident for a while, probably least an hour, right. I don't know. I think we're there for two our two hours. Yeah, yeah, because I remember it was like about the time I thought we'd be back from dinner. So I was like, oh my gosh, we have to do the zoom. But yeah, we were there for a long time. So we're hungry and my mom was like order food, like I'll pay for it. Like get whatever you want, and I was like what do we get? Guys like, I don't know, and so I ended up just ordering pizza and stuff from this place nearby that we'd like, and I was like that's easy and fast, hopefully. So whatever, even though, honestly, about the time it came it was like kind of hard to eat. I don't know. I just like, I don't know, it's just such a weird night. But we had cake and everything, and I shall also mentioned, I guess, that two of our friends came to pick us up, which I was going to say Nice of them. Shout out one of them, my friend Kelly, who I've mentioned it before. She's the one who got me, and she came over for a little bit as well to hang with us, which originally she wasn't going to be allowed to because we were trying to keep it minimized, but at that point it was like we can see Kelly without a mask. She just picked us up from an accident. Nothing is normal right now. So and I also wasn't sure if it was going to come over and not. So I was like I want a friend. Yeah, here. So yeah, but yeah, and I called our friend Brooke, just because I knew that there was five of us in the car and so we didn't know what the stage was like. If Trey's parents, yeah, I'm going to culy, they were going to be able to me there, and so it's like if all five of us need to ride, when I'm not going to fit in one car. So I also called someone and her friend, Brooke, came to and that was just what I needed. I like needed a not like I felt like at the scene. I was like the grounded energy and for just a minute, you know, you need someone to ground you, and so I am glad that Brooke was able to come as well and, yeah, pick me up and yeah, give that to me for just a second.

Yeah, so I think that's that's a big things that, like we're so thankful for the support system we've had throughout the entire experience. And seriously, everybody has said to get off you need absolutely anything, like please let me know and like, well, I'm afraid to say, like we come help me on the my dishwasher. Ye, but I know that like if I were to see that to something like they would would you know. But seriously, but yeah, it's been overwhelming. Like how much love we've gotten and it's been really kind. Yeah, I know. Yeah, well, this is a lighter subject that we could talk about, but yeah, it's interesting to see like who like slides in or like will message you, like I had a couple xes do so, which was out. This is the thing I had to tell you about. And so one guy I dated, he messaged me, which was really nice. I'll read the CONVO. Okay. So he was like, oh my gosh, are you okay? Once he saw and I was like yes, much better than it could have been. It was really scary, just some chest, neck and back pain. And Anyway, he kept saying stuff and he's like glad you're okay, seriously, and I was like yeah, yeah, it could have been way worse, but blah, and he was like cars can be replaced, Natalie cannot. If I can help anyway, I'd be happy to B Blah. And he's like also, happy birthday, and this was my birthday, and I was like, I know, such a fun birthday and he was like just think it's when you definitely won't forget. But what I to tell you was I didn't realize, but I guess I you know, obviously I unfollowed him. So I wasn't following him during this conversation, but then I like went on his profile like yesterday or today. Yeah, today, because I was like let's see what he's been up to. He's that was nice of him to reach out. So I like look at it and I'm like, Oh, I'm not following him. I was like, I guess I'll follow him whatever. I'm like over it. But he didn't have I don't think he posted anything since I've seen him, but he posts on ticktock a lot, which I remembered because he had a story today of a tick tock he made. was like, Oh, maybe I'll look at his tick tock. They're like kind of silly and basically, with him and I, I have talked about him before, but we ended things because I think he got back with his ex girlfriend and I honestly was like what, I wonder if they're still together, like what's going on there? So I like washed all his tick tocks. They were silly. And then I finally get to the most recent one and it's him talking about how he's trying to find this cat or whatever, but he's like not a ready. My fiance is moms looking for. Yeah, beyonce. I was like, Oh, oh, my first ever ex to be engaged. How Fun. Yeah, I know, that's what I was gonna tell you. It's not crazy. That's so funny. And it's weird too, because his instagram doesn't have any post with her or like you would think there'd be some sort of engagement, like they are some weird case. Like what? Maybe they've always been engaged and he just kept your secret. Maybe, Gosh, hope not. But I guess it's almost reassuring because when I was dating him, he's like probably the oldest guy I've ever day. Like he's not that old, but I think he's like four or five years older than me. He's in his like mid s. But in Utah and him as a past x Mormon, it was like they want to get married around that age and his sister was just a couple years older and she was married with a few kids. So I was like Huh, like, is he gonna want to get married soon? He's like, I'm not about that. So it's kind of interesting to see that he is engaged now. So, like, I guess it's good I didn't stay with him. Boss out of it like, I don't know. I don't want to say that...

...could have been me, because I wouldn't do said yes, but it would have been holding him back from us. Obviously that it wasn't meant to be what she wanted. So it's not crazy. I feel so old. Oh my God, Ah, I'm just like that's funny. I was like, I don't like care, but I just kind of like freaked out for a sec because it's just a weird concept to think about. I also had another guy I was seeing somewhat recently reach out and he was like sorry if this is weird, but I saw you were in an accident and I was like no, yeah, it's not weird, and he was being really nice and asking how I'm doing. Let me know if he needed anything or want to talk about it. He sent a black heart. We Love Anyway. So silly. Did you have anyone stilly reach out that was unexpected? Not like that kind of silly. I think just like I don't know, high school people, you know, the are kind. Yeah, it's fine. Yeah, there's some people that I like wouldn't consider my friends that are like so grateful. You're okay, you're like yeah, are you like you know, I don't know, it does make me wonder, like everybody that like said Nice things to me, like if I said that they were in an accident, like I hope that I like my instinct would be to say something to them. Yeah, you know, I feel like now it will be yeah, I mean to most people because, I mean, you really know what they're going through. I mean, I don't know, have you ever been an accident before? We kind of talked about this. Yeah, it's in an accident my junior year of high school. It wasn't as like scary as this one, just because we were arre ended and so like it wasn't I was like, I don't know, impact on the front to like that kind of thing. I think what was bought about it was that my friend who is driving her parents car and her parents were out of town. They're actually insi like, and so I was a big mess like with the police and insurance because like we didn't have the owner of the car and like she didn't, you know, like she had her license and her insurance, but like it was all just like messy, and so that was really frustrating. But the person who did I was texting and driving, which was like kind of a kind of puts you into perspective of like what that does, you know. Yeah, I was like not as injured. I have a concussion from this accident and so I didn't have like anything official like that. It was just like stiffness and soreness. And the next day we had like our junior year like drama competition and like we were in an accident the night before, but like we still made it to state. It was like so dramatic and Ghoss, but it was kind of funny though. Yeah, that was scary. I think of what I distinctly remember about just like both experiences together, so that it's I've never been in an accident or it's warm outside, like it's always cold outside and you're always like shivering and like like even for this accident, like the lady brought three blankets and I was like happy to love my friends just use the blankets. Like I had bur legs, like I was I was freezing, you know, but like whatever, like I'd rather other people be okay and like I'll shiver all night and eventually be fine, you know, but I just remember I'm being so cold at both places. Yeah, yeah, I was in one. I'm not sure how old I was, maybe about ten. It was like whatever age you like kids sit in the front seat. I like just started sitting in the front seat and I was in the front seat with my mom and sister and we are on our way to see the Hannah Montana movie. So I guess whenever that came out, yeah, because it was in theaters. But yeah, so we were at a stop sign. I think it was sort of similar where the car was. Another car was coming from the other side and they stopped. Yeah, or like it was something weird. Yeah, I guess they must...

...have ran the stop sign. But I remember after our accident they like made the stop sign more clear or something like that, because it like wasn't safe. Like I think a lot of accidents have occurred on that, that intersection. But yeah, that was scary too. I remember after that one again, it was like if I didn't have my seat belt, I would have cashed through the one shield and died. So like again where seat belt everyone, but saved my life twice now. But yeah, I don't even remember. I don't think the air bags went off in that one. Maybe they did, but if they did, it was similar to this one where they didn't do much. But from that one, I remember I just kept replaying it, like I'm sort of doing with this one, but I was just unable to sleep for like weeks or months, like I had like PTSD from it, like it was bad and because I was pretty young. I mean you know whatever age you're seeing the Hanna Montana movie, that's pretty young. Yeah, it was. Yeah, it was scary and I wasn't able to sleep, and I've been sort of struggling with that with this one, especially that first night I didn't get any sleep. Like Sydney and I were texting it like two am and then I don't know, we I would like try to sleep and not look at my phone and she was up watching spirit at like three am and I didn't look till like an hour later I saw her snapshot. I was like, I haven't been sleeping and I try to listening to podcasts, which helps a little bit, like it at least distracts my mind, which was the point. I was like, well, at least I can listen to a fun and podcast while I'm like trying to not think about what just occurred. But the other problem was just being in pain. is making it hard to sleep and it was like cold in my apartment, or at least I was cold, and so I like was shivering, but I like didn't want to get out of bed because I was cold and like it hurt to move, but my mom was like, you need to take tile in all like like it's all the way in the kitchen, and every time I sat up to even just like drink my water, it really hurt because, like, I guess we didn't really talk about our injuries. Yet we're again. We're like okay, like we're fine, it's nothing big. Like actually just got an x ray today, so I'm not positive what's up with this officially yet, but I could tell you that my chest hurts, my neck hurts, my back and shoulders hurt. Those are the main things that hurt, but my arms kind of hurt, my legs kind of hurt, everything kind of hurts, but those are the one is that are really fun, really impacting my life and hurting me to do my daily tasks. You know, that's what I mean by impacting my life. Like it hurts to do my dishwasher and for pick up my have like stuff all over my floor. I'll have to pick it up eventually. But Yeah, Andrey wise, I, like I said, I have a concussion. I think like the impact of my body. I basically just like I think I slid forward into Natalie seat and my knees hit that seat. So I have some sick bruising and then I hit my head on that seat and then on my way back I like hit the back of my head, like the crown of my head, on the back of that seat. So it was like a bull boom dumble hit her. So you know, the brains double hit. The brain wasn't too too happy with that. But yeah, same thing. I like have a lot of soreness in my right forearm, which is like kind of weird. I think it must have just like been by the door so it was like exter stiff. I don't know. I do also have some bruising on my arm, so I think my hand might have been on my arm, but I like squeezed it. I left as a little bit worse than a right weird I think. I don't know. He was like testing something at the doctors today and one side was worse, but interesting, maybe it was the other. Yeah, I had extra is dead yesterday and nothing's fractured, which I didn't think there was something. They're just so my neck is strange, which basically just means like the muscles are just like really inflamed...

...around it. So that's why it's going to hurt. Yeah, they they said like the alignment of my spine was fine up until up in my neck, like the natural curve was just really straightened instead of the natural curve because the muscles are so like inflamed that it just like kind of messed that up. So then once the muscles relax, the curful just go back into place. So nothing to too concerning, just like you know whip lash, which, yeah, is a thing that most people are familiar with. ME. Yeah, what I will say is that a Corus Line, like I've mentioned lots of times, is that we're filming a chorus line. My filming time is a week from today, so like I'll be okay. But a lot of times people make jokes by getting with lash from chorus line because there's so many layouts and there's so many like you bend your back as far as you can, freak and go, you know, and arch and there's just so much and my dance teacher today was like, you know, I've he said I've never seen someone to opening jazz with real whiplash and I was like, Yay, can wait for that. Wow, it's funny, but wow, my dance class day there was three girls in my dance class today who were also in an accident like a week and a half ago or something, but they said there's wasn't as bad. But there was only five of us in person today and four of us had been in an accident with them the last week. So it's kind of crazy. But yeah, well, at least you're some people filmed the course line. Yeah, today he would. I said my time, there's no way. Yeah, and you could not have dined today. How did you? So we both had dance in person today. He didn't let me dance. He didn't let you. Yeah, I said, I I'll try and use a city said out of that chair, because he liked watched me try to put my coffee down on the ground and he was like. He was like you go to the doctor? I said I went yesterday. He said HMM, yeah, and then I was like I'm gonna tried. He was like, go sit down because I got your chair. I was like hmm, that's nice. Yeah, I sort of do. I did the beginning like modified ish and then but then we were doing like lyrical day and they were like rolling on the floor and like doing a lot of spine and like stuff like that and I was like, yeah, I'm tapping out. So I watched the second half and then I did styles sort of because it wasn't as bad and I was my only day to go in person to do it. So, yeah, I realized we hadn't discussed that. Yeah, I probably should have just watched the whole class. It was kind of sad, but yeah, it was like because I told him today, like I messaged him on Facebook Messenger and like because he's been like asking how I am just throughout the experience and I just was like hey, just you know, like I'm gonna come in today and try my beds and he just like didn't reply. So that's he had a plan to tell me a person but in my message I said I think it'll help my spirit like just like being around you and like being in the class, you know, and so I think he like really took that to heart that I like needed some cheer again. It's so much the whole time. He'd like make a joke and like look at me and like hope I'd laugh, but like I don't really like I laugh. Obviously, yeah, I know, but a lot of times like funny things I own and I'll literally say that's funny. Yeah, and I don't laugh, but I like I'm not saying that it was. Yeah, yeah, I do that too. But he he made so many jokes my hbo trying to be like has city hboh, and I was like that's funny. Just like sorry, like that's funny, and he'd be like every time he was like I was like sorry, Gosh. You know. That's like on Sunday, on my actual birthday, like people were trying to have me have a good day and I was just like kind of low spirits from everything and in pain, like because the pain was bad...

Saturday night but not as bad, obviously, as the next day. And so like Kelly and her roommates were like we made a tea party for you, like have fun, and like she got me all these like cute gifts and I just like couldn't be excited. I was like like I really liked them and I was like I'm sorry, it doesn't seem like I'm happy right now, like they're really nice and I'm like excited. I just like didn't have I also was just exhausted because I didn't sleep but all that night. So it was just like hard to show that I was appreciating and I was like I promise, like I appreciate this. I'm just like not in a place to show my appreciation. I don't know. Yeah, so anyway, I was thinking we could call this episode like second chances or something, just thinking about like how crazy life is and you got second chances with other things as well. I mean I don't know if you you have any experience, but second chances with relationships or with, I don't know, all sorts of things, school, performing your job, any anything. Just an interesting thing to think about, all the second chances you've had and you're given and you give other people. It's just been so interesting to think about. I mean I can't dwell on it too much, but the timing of everything, like if we took a second longer to drop off cakes or, you know, we went on the other route, yeah, or the if that car just like was a second earlier or later, would have either not hit us or hit us even worse, you know, like it's just so weird to think about all the timing. And it was like I was talking about mom and being like wow, we're just, you know, we're so lucky like that. You know, we're all okay, and like it worked out how it did, because she didn't understand the accident because it just looks like we were hit from front on or something, you know. So once I like explained it to her and like really explained to the facts that siddy and I were on the side of where this car was full speed coming from, she was freaked out, obviously, but it was like Ah, like thank God, and I was like okay, but why did it happen in the first place, like I don't know, like, you know, like I don't know. I'm like, is there a lesson we needed to learn? Like my mom and I decided will never run a yellow light again, you know, like the like well, always were steat belts now and definitely, yeah, that's yet. I think it's so funny that I really uptell like everyone, like I don't need to tell everyone that I wasn't wearing a sea bult, but for some reason I just need everyone to know that, like this is was really bad, like these were see faults, like why did I live? Like I didn't have a seatbelt, like that's so bad, you know. So, yeah, no, I agree with you. I think second chances are an interesting concept, not something I think about often or really had associated with with the car accident. Yeah, don't know. Yeah, I guess I do believe that, like, everything happens for a reason, like I don't need to question it. Yeah, it was meant to happen. Yeah, while it sucks, obviously, you know, but it was meant to happen. I'm like, why? I don't know and I don't know if I need to know. Maybe I needed to get a little humbold, you know, maybe I needed to it, I don't, become more grounded and who I am and, like what I live for, like maybe we were taking things for granted. Exactly. Yeah, it's like if, okay, if we're having this chance, like I didn't die, okay, I...

...need to make the most of my life. I need to maybe it's because, you know, I've been feeling men about school and everything lately, honestly, which I still sort of am. Honestly, I'm just kind of sad now, but like I need to like have that fire under me and be like, okay, Natalie, you were given this chance, you know, make something of it, enjoy your life. You're lucky your live, you know, which sounds so dramatic, but like you guys don't understand, like we really are, like we are like it was crazy and we you know, this whole episode could be a super you ad, because it should be. We swear it's because our friend was driving a Subaru and they're known for being really safe, and you know they are. Sure, yeah, but anyway, yeah, I think it's also like, yes, like make the most of everything you're given after something like that, but I also think it's like I'm making sure that you're like appreciating what you are given. Yeah, like the little things, like, yeah, yeah, I guess it's also just really nice, like it shows you who really cares in your life as well and like how meaningful people are to you. I think it was just weird for me because it was coupled with my birthday, so I had people reaching out about both things and giving me things. Were both things which, you know, as I said last week, gifts are my like least important love language, but you know, it's still mental and I knew it was them showing they care. And it's weird too. I haven't mentioned this to you, but one of my like best friends from home, I thought I haven't heard from him at all, which is really weird, like, and not even because of the accident, because my birthday, like every year he says happy birthday and like we like post for each other and it's I don't know, I like want to check in on him, but I'm also like talk. I don't know. Yeah, it's weird and I feel like, thinking back to our like healthy relationships episode, I feel like I've always been the one who's like reached out first to him and like tried to continue the relationship because we're in opposite side of the country and I do really care about him and love him. It's just like I don't know, and this is like if it was that he just like didn't care for God or something like. I don't know, it might be the last Straw. I don't know. We're all have to at least say something about it, because I've never said anything about it. So I do think, just in regard to the accident on your birthday, it can be hard for people to know what to say and I can be hard for people to yeah, you know, talk about it if they have a bad experience or something like that. Yeah, I think I was more because I'm not expecting people to reach out about the accident or I don't expect most people to reach out about my birthday. But with him it was just like weird, because he's one of my best friends and we always post for each other and call each other, like I facetime him on his birthday. You know, I'm sorry. Yeah, I don't know, it's weird. I'm kind of upset about it. But and then I have another home friend who his girlfriend messaged me happy birthday and he didn't. Why do men suck? I don't know. But like, Gosh, I don't know. But the people who did, you know, reach out, who I'm less close to, it's like, oh my gosh, thank you, thank you. Yeah, yeah, it's crazy. And Yeah, I've had some some ants and cousins that I've said some really nice things and I like didn't really expect them to do that. And like my high school voice teacher messaged me and was like I'm in Salt Lake. Like if you need anything, you know, like that's really nice. And Yeah, it's nice to know that people are happy to help when when you need it. Yeah, for sure, for sure, and sometimes it's the people you don't expect, you know. Yeah, and now it's yeah, and I'm like Oh, like, my rooms a mess because I can't pick things up and I have all these presents lying around, like poor me, but like, no, that's so nice. I have all these things in like my friends...

...know me so well. They got me things I like needed or want, like sending on me nightgowns like that was that was the least impressive thing she caught me, but to me it was like, oh my gosh, she knows I want a night gowns. Just shut up about eating more, I love it. There's so sops too, and I got like brownies and Brownie makes and give cards to brownies and I got like two of my friends gave me Tazzo Chi team makes, like they know, like thank you, I want that and I would have bought it for myself because it's a fun little like luxury thing, I don't know. And pumpkin seeds. Someone got me pumpkin seats chocolate. I got four candles. The friends all sent me candles. I love it. One of my roommates aunts all live nearby and like, I guess she has like four ants or something, but one of them came by with Mac and cheese and another one came by with like a salad and dessert, and then another one sent us cookies. Like, oh my gosh, thanks. That was because of all, because of the accident, but pretty crazy and nice. That is kind yeah, okay, you guys. Well, thanks for listening to this. We yeah, are sorry that it's kind of a downer. Yeah, definitely wanted to share our experience with you and, yeah, make sure you know, you know what's going on with us. Yeah, definitely check out our instagram. Will Post those q outfit picks for our Taylor's. Yeah, yes, our instagram is bold and balanced with periods in between. So that's bad period and period balance. And you can email us at bold end balanced at gmailcom. But any increase or if you have questions. We're not going to do a question this week, but you know, I feel free to reach out or just ask us anything personal and maybe you've been an accident, you need some help or something. I don't know if you have ideas, advice for us to work over? Yeah, let us know. Yeah, we love you guys a lot and we're so grateful that we've made it two, episode seventeen and yeah, it really yeah, we are so well, catch you next week with something fun and I'm yes, but it is really.

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